Page Turning

By Amy

The New Year has clutched its eager baby fingers around my available mama hand and we’re crossing the street together.

I am always looking for a reason to make big changes and long lists of how to get from place A to place B, and the annual covergence of winter solstice, the last full moon of the year and a major federal holiday is just the spot to start dressing the windows in my mind of what life will be like next. Sometimes it starts as simply as the selection of a color, or an image. This year it began with a disdain for all things 2009. I literally pushed 2009 out the front door and bolted it behind her. A bit late, as we were returning from a fabulous friend party in the neighborhood and the champagne had tempered my 2009 aggression. But I did remember to do it, and I didn’t even leave the porch light on for 2009. She’s on her own.

Anyhoo, welcome to the New Year and all its exciting unfoldings!

I’ve made lists (whee, joy) of all the goings-on I want to attend this spring, which involves many classes and meetings about lost arts (like canning and curry-making) but I’m also sticking with my must-do list that STILL includes cleaning out the garage. This one, unfortunately a holdover from ‘09 just might have been on the ‘08 list as well. Ahem. We try, and it’s all we can do.

And to support those lists, I’ve rearranged my bloglines/rss feeds to intentionally EXCLUDE the blogs that make me feel terrible (like design*sponge, which I truly cannot look at without wanting to redo my entire household and who needs that on a DAILY BASIS). I’ve rearranged my closet and made lists of all the lovely things I must have before spring arrives, lined up the books to augment the classes I’m taking, and even mapped out an idea of what congratulatory vacation might follow the ultimate attainment of said goals.

And here’s the kicker: the result of all these undertakings doesn’t actually matter. It is ALL about the planning, the stretching and figuring-out, the wondering what-if and squinting your eyes in the mirror to see what you might look with your hair all chopped off and french schoolgirl because you’re in the mood to CAST OFF the old and wave in the new. After the tense worry of October through December, the opportunity to just walk around under the great big sky and wonder what life has in store for you (and to humor the gods by pretending you have any influence over it all) is so absolutely fantastic that it creates a little life high that lasts all the way through April if you do it right.
Here’s wishing you all the same feeling of joy and bright flashlights as you also turn the page of your personal “choose your own adventure” life stories.

XO

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(Nina Simone looking entirely badass and awesome here in honor of 2010, and perhaps the coolest woman who ever lived. Photographer unknown)