Late diagnosis is a common story for women, whose well-honed coping strategies (those which a wiser GenZ refers to as “masking”) start to fall apart when a combination of life-work stressors ramp up to eleven. As children, girls don’t always present with the fidgety, hyper-physical and outwardly obvious manifestations that catch educators’ attention, so girls instead enjoy rounds of encouragement to “just apply themselves.” In my case, cartwheeling in the grocery store aisle was just seen as part of a creative little goofbucket living her best life. When the Cs and Ds in math and science (I have dyscalculia too - a common ADHD partner) started rolling in around 5th grade, I was advised by educators to take things more seriously, but was given a pass due to my hyper-capacity in language, arts, and social science. My ability to write plays and books, and compose complex musical pieces by ear clearly contrasted with this idea that I was incapable, so I wrote their opinions about me off as generational, and ultimately went my own way.
It’s cathartic to realize that you were never defective as a child, teen, nor as an adult, even if you knew it, somewhow, all along. To finally have proof that what steered you “off track” was never dumb apathy; that your lack of accolades had nothing to do with your intelligence or dedication. When my diagnosis came, I took a lonnnng look at my life story, re-examining it from this new perspective and was never the same.